chelsea

i hate...

2007-05-01T08:28:35Z

missing people.

it may be one of the worst feelings ever.
the only thing that keeps me sane:

"distance makes the heart grow fonder"

god, 6 years later...

2007-03-14T07:32:24Z

and i am still completely INFATUATED with adam lazzara.

tonight made me feel like i was 12 years old again.
and in love with him.

its funny.
i always remember this.
he was the FIRST boy i told my mom i legit loved.
and she laughed at me.

i was 12.

seeing taking back sunday tonight made me realize how much i love this band.

its been 6 years.
and i swear to you.
my love for this band.
and for that man
is undying.

not to mention how phenomenal underoath was (even though their pit was GNARLY), but me and kara could not STAND to watch them from the side. so we grew some balls and conquered that underoath pit like youve never seen.

god i love and missed those boys.

and armor, was amazing as usual.

god i can not get over tbs. im telling you. my love will never ever falter for that band.
i would not love the music i love today, if not for them.

wow. thats all you can say after a night like tonight. wow.
i am truly content.

inner conflict.

2007-02-17T20:52:39Z

i am quasi regretting not going to the academy is.... video shoot.

damnit.

i should have just gone.

my stupid pride had to get in the way.
maybe its good i didnt?

i have a feeling i woul dhave bitch slapped all of them if i saw them.

but regret.
is the worst.

am i a hypocryte for saying dont regret anything?
but here i am just wondering what would have happened?

damn you inner conflict

i love sell outs.

2007-01-30T00:31:03Z

i have lost all fucking form of respect for you 4 guys.

4...not 5.
got it?

first off.....you are not that amazing.
you are......but get off your fucking soap box.
im sorry. you know how much i cared for you guys....especially the two of you.
you know what we had.
you fucking know.

this is about so much.
soooo much that a lot of people don't understand.

i don't know what to do anymore.
seeing you is going to make me.....you know...i don't even know.

good luck guys.
i know your not reading this or anything.
but good fucking luck.
i don't know if you have MY support anymroe.

itunes...you peice of shit

2007-01-26T20:23:29Z

sooo my itunes is a bitch.

and just erased all my midtown shit.

so does ANYONE have FWYK or save the world...... or living well.....

i will forever and always love you.

sn: chelocean0823

ps. who else is so over this cobra drama?

content.

2007-01-20T10:04:30Z

i want....someone who will:

...watch an entire season of the oc with me. and make fun of me for it.
go to a show over dinner and a movie......everytime...
...point and laugh when i trip.
sing me one of the following: "she paints me blue", "my beautiful rescue", "i'm doing everything", "thunder"...
...convince me to skip class to hang out, then guilt trip me about it.
prank call me....
...visit me at work.
get a tattoo with me...
...be spontaneous and random with me.
tickle me until i cry of laughter...
...jokingly flip me off.

i could go on.
for hours.
and hours.

but for now.
im content.
weird huh?

santi

2007-01-18T09:48:37Z

fucking santi is coming.

its about time there was a cd named after that tool.

bye bye chop chop

dumb

2007-01-12T10:15:50Z

dear cleveland.

i hate you.

love chelsea.

hopefully i will really get this lj thing rolling within the next week

idiocracy

2007-01-11T10:02:38Z

bush you are a fucking idiot.

21000 more troops?

i have an idea.
how about take your ass over to iraq.
and start fighting this war.

sound good?

this sure ain't a scene

2007-01-05T18:40:57Z

someone get me to fob tonight.

because i have no ticket.

kthx

chelsface0823 @ 2007-01-02T02:28:00

2007-01-02T10:40:13Z

1.] Where were you at the very start of 2006?
i wish i remembered

2.] What was your status by Valentine's Day?
i was single....not much of a suprise

3.] Were you in school (anytime this year)?
of course. both highschool and college.

4.] Did you have sex this year?
why would you ask that?

5.] Did you ever have to go to the hospital?
thankfully, my accident proned life skipped a year

6.] Did you ever have an encounter with the police?
life would not be fun without countless police encounters

7.] Where did you go on vacation?
i didnt neccessarily take a legit vacation

8.] What did you purchase that was over $500?
ummm.......books.

9.] Did you know anybody who got married?
a whole lot.

10.] Did you know anybody who passed away?
yes

11.] Have you ran into anybody you graduated high school with?
actually yes. all at shows. in southern california. which was funny. because i went to high school in northern california. ya know?

12.] Did you move anywhere?
southern california. wouldnt have it any other way.

13.] What sporting events did you go to?
no professional

14.] Did you get a tattoo?
saved that for 2007

15.] Are you registered to vote?
i am

16.] If so, did you do your patriotic duty on Nov. 7?
what happens if i say no?

17.] Where do you live now?
orango county, ca..

18.] Describe your birthday?
mediochre

19.] What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2006?
traveled for a band

20.] What is one thing you regretted this year?
i try not to live with regrets.

21.] What is the best thing that's happened to you this year?
i found my passion

22.] What's something you learned about yourself?
that i can take care of myself

23.] Any new additions to your family?
yes. not my immediate family though

24.] What was your best month?
july

25.] What event from pop culture will you remember 2006 by?
how the scene became the new fad

26.] How would you rate this year with a scale from 1 (the worst) to 10 (the best) ?
lets just say. i want to leave this year behind.

2007.
a new start.
a new beginning.
a new chance.

that can be intimidating. but i have never in my life been so excited for a fresh start. im ready to take advantage, to mess up, to love, to live, to do things i never dreamed. im going places. this is my year. i know it.

i have goals.
ambitions.

things you don't know. people are going to know me. i am so ready.
i am going to be who i want to be, i am going to do what i know i need to. i am going to love. i am going to get what i want. i am going to get him

im not afraid.
remember that.

chelsface0823 @ 2006-12-15T04:42:00

2006-12-15T04:42:26Z

so many updates,
not so little time.
but too little energy.

update coming soon for those who care.

time to lounge lovebugs.

our days were numbers by nights on too many rooftops

2006-12-04T00:43:00Z

im trying to focus.
im trying my hardest.
i cant get you off my mind.
no matter how badly
i sometimes wish i had never met you.

why did you come into my life.
why did you charm the shit out of me.

i know you dont even think about me.
but i spend countless moments
wishing you did.

whats left to do.

but study for finals.

ps. the fall out boy video shoot was insane.
get ready for a random amazing video.

going back to get away...after everything had changed.

2006-11-26T06:29:21Z

thanksgiving.
a day of...
thanks.

ok.
i am thankful for......

the cliches...

...my family, although it may be shitty at times.
...for my friends, even though most dont live near me, i am so grateful for all of you.
...for my health. again shitty in some aspects. but i am alive and well.
...for music. because well.....it keeps me sane. and functioning.
...for the people making music. for the boys driving around in vans. for the girls that are kicking ass.
...for faith. without it...who are we?
...for my dog. because i love her a whole lot.
...for my purple 2002 kia sportage for getting me to work so i can pay for my school.
...for my sister for being a butthead at times, but being my best friend the rest of the time.

and

...for panic! at the disco. for giving me something to laugh about.

for coffee.
for love.
for friendship.
for sushi.
for chicago.
for warped tour.
for good hair days.
for powerbooks and ipods.
for him.

i could use someone

2006-11-20T09:03:52Z

i could use a hero right now.
i could use someone to save me.

i just need someone who cares.
someone who gives a shit about whats going on.

someone to carry me.
to lift my spirits.

someone to renew my faith in everything.
to show me how to believe.

someone to hug me.
to tell me everything is going to be alright.

someone to be my friend.
to be my true friend.

is that to much to ask for?

with empty words our worlds collide. it was my ego telling me why.

2006-11-14T00:12:11Z

Wake up and let go
Of these feelings that I've had for you
It's easier said than done

that feeling.
in your stomach. that one. you know it. i know it well. it resurfaced. finding out things i wish i did not know. things that i put in the back of my mind. things that should just be left.

why is everything i know falling? falling. it falls?

So give up and let go
Of these feelings that I've had for you
Why couldn't you be the one?

that feeling.
i'll never let this go. thats a lie. i will let this go. when my life's as it should be. but then again. lies are lies in everybody's eyes. and well. i don't believe you.

i know there is something there.
i know it.
give it time.
have patience.
thats what i'm told.
and this time there is nothing to do.
then to listen.

my ego is through the roof. iv'e seen your fucking attitude. but my pride lays shattered. i wish i could trample my pride and tell the whole world.
because i've been dying to say this to you.
and i don't know what else to do.

chelsface0823 @ 2006-11-04T01:35:00

2006-11-04T01:35:58Z

so i am sitting in my bio leacture right now. and whil i should be listening to my teacher talk about the genetics of a fruit fly, i am instead posting my "first" livejournal entry. the reason i put "first" in quotes is because i have had a liverjournal account for quiteeeeee some time now but have never been able to figure out how to use it. i still really don't, but luckily i have ellen to help me out. so the point of this entry? to welcome everyone to my new livejournal that i hope to update very oftenly. so spread the word. chelsea has a livejournal and wants some friends. good day lovers.

how do i post questions?
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